I have a need and it is strong. I did not know it until recently. I am a submissive, well at least at home. I spend all day making decisions, dealing with stress and pressure. I would have to say part of the need stems from there, but there is also a large part of me that craves the way things were in a time long ago. Where men were men and treated as such, where women were treated with respect an decency. We have long ventured away from that way of thinking.
Even as I see others like me there are those who are hanging on so tightly to this ideas of what being submissive is and isn't. Like Polyamory, submission predates today's norms. However, it was not seen as a kink, or fetish it just was the way things were. It was common for one person to be at home in service to another. This person was usually the woman, and it was her duty to make sure everything was taken care of for the man of the house, and look after the children. She was expected to follow certain rules, and live by certain standards.
As year progressed we got away from this and entered every man, and woman for themselves. Traditional gender roles were eradicated women mirror men in a lot of ways and started to take offense to things that were normal for our grandmothers. After all how dare he tell me he's uncomfortable with the fact I have a dozen male friends. When I was young my grandmother told me "Once a woman is married she has no business making new male friends that aren't associated with her husband" When I asked her why she stated "You don't invite a fox into the hen house"
If you say this today you will find a great deal of women will disagree and start a rant about no one telling them they can't have friends. I understand the premise, its just not for me. When I thought about my relationships I often thought about my grandparents, and how they were married until death. If the way they did things back then is so wrong, why is the divorce rate higher now?
Please don't think I am judging anyone, I too was once a rebellious woman with a man trying to hold me down and I fought him every step of the way. Now we are divorced. I need to say its more so because he was abusive, and I would not relent to his abusive ways. I fought against is dominance that was not given or accepted by me. So for safety purposes I fought back.
Today, is a different day with a new me living in it. I know that I prefer a more traditional role based relationship. Where the man is the man and treated as such. I enjoy the freedom that comes with not having to make every decision on my own. I like having rules, and orders. I love that there is no sexual frustration in my relationship. I think that it is good for both of us to know it will just happen when Daddy and I thinks it necessary. I love that there are rules that demand we are loving and affectionate to each other.
I need to be submissive because it takes away so many worries. I feel safe and secure. I don't have to walk on eggshells wondering if I have broken a rule I don't know about. They are all written down for me. I know that if there is an issue we will talk about it. I love that he takes care of me and I take care of him. I feel wanted and needed, and while he his powerful in his own right it is me that has all the power. I need it to feel loved, wanted, safe, and secure.
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