Somewhere in the middle

Daddy and I have been on a journey through life together. We had drug ourselves out of the terrible relationships that we once knew and managed to find each other. Part of this journey is our path in BDSM as Daddy and Little. For me I struggled with the little title because I do not fit all the stereotypes. Don't get me wrong I love stuffed animals, and I will put some pigtails in with the snap of Daddy's fingers if he wants to play slutty cheerleader, and douchey football star ;) However, I have no desire to wear them all the time, or color, drink from a sippy, etc. If others do that is fine. However, I have found through additional research that you can be a Middle (12-17 age range) which is still considered a little just a different age range. That was a relief. Middles tend to be a bit more mischievous which gets them into trouble with Daddy a little more often. They enjoy older activities such as movies, dates, shopping, going for walks, going for ice cream, and gaming.  They tend to be more flirty than a little, and a have higher sex drives. So I'm a little that's stuck in the middle and that is okay. 

Part of this journey for me is trusting another human being enough to not question myself. I understand that what Daddy says is final, I struggle, occasionally, with the fear that comes with trusting another person with well your life and all the decisions. It is a difficult task for those of us that are new and have not lived like this for that long. I have only ever depended on myself, I find at times I'm second guessing myself. I want to be good and obedient, but the bratty nature of being a middle gets in the way at times. I know this is just something I have to continue to work on as time goes on. I know that it can't always be easy for Daddy either to know what to do with me when I am struggling. It is important to take the time to learn about your roles and don't just dive in assuming you know it all. Just as it is important to talk to each other and work it out. 

Middles like little's need clear boundaries because they will wiggle through if you leave wiggle room. This is an important part of being a Daddy is making sure you are giving information and not just short answers. I personally do better if someone talks things through with me instead of being dismissive. If I don't feel things are resolved I instantly go into defensive mode. I have learned the hard way unresolved issues can come back later. In the absence of resolution I spiral. I'm not certain how to handle myself, or if the issue will creep up later. This make communication even more important to me. I need reassurance everything is going to be okay.