Adding little things to your big world.

I love my little self :), more accurately I am a middle I favor more teenager like traits.  For so long I have hidden my little. While she is very much a part of me even in the community that should accept Daddy and I there are those who just do not get it. I feel even if I stand on a box an shout "this has nothing to do with pedophilia!" there are those who will still shake their heads and wonder why I would want to pretend to be five and bang my dad. **Sigh** This isn't about that though. For little/middle like me you know that there is this stigma in the world, and it is hard for people to see the real dynamic at work here. This means that it is even harder for us to bring pieces of our little lives into our big worlds.  It is super hard being adulty so much is expected especially if you have a high stress job. I have been looking for way to represent my whole self in my daily life. So I have looked into ways that I can sneak things in. I love music, and I have very cute headphones that I take to work. It isn't anything that anyone would notice. So when I am stressed at work I can put them on and listen to my music. It little space but on an adulty level ;)

 So the big day is coming and I am of course talking about the wedding. My wedding to be exact, and I have spent some time trying to figure out how to sympathetically blend both worlds. I have a huge family, so it cannot be obvious. I was able to fine the cutest Mary Janes! They are red and they have the cutest bows. The will look cute with skinny jeans, and killer with my dress.  Only Daddy and I will know the significance. It is important to find and maintain a balance. I want to have that part there with us because it is such a pillar in our life. I understand that this may be difficult for some of us. Especially, if you have friends and family that are of the more conservative nature. You do not want to select items that will draw too much obvious attention. You don't want to have to answer a bunch of questions about your Hello Kitty headband at work. Select small trinkets that can easily blend in with everyone else. Take time to look around the environment and see what you can get away with. In example, my office mate has lots of little figurines on her desk, I plan on adding some of my little figurines as well. 

As I get more comfortable in my skin, I find that I care less about the opinions of others. I am happy, and my life feels complete. So why would I leave a piece of my self out?  No one should have to choose what part of themselves that can be in public.